Best Friend Lies

I thought we would always be best friends,
Isn't that what we said?
Best friends forever until the end?
We would stick together no matter what happened?

I guess I was wrong,
Cause you broke me down,
You don't wanna be my friend no more,
What did I do?
I thought I could always count on you,
But I guess not,
Cause you left me here all alone,
Now what am I supposed to do without you?

As the days go by life is getting harder,
And I'm thinking about you more and more,
Wishing you were still here.
I need you now more then I ever have before,
But your no where near.

How could this happen?
After all we've been through,
We were always there for each other,
We were so close,
At least I thought we were,
But maybe I was wrong, again.
Did you really want our friendship to end?

Calm and Quiet

You are the sort of person who like to takes life slowly..You usually know the difference between right and wrong..You believe in yourself..You put yourself in other peoples shoe and see how it feels to be them and handled a situation accordingly your attitude toward life..The flip side is that sometimes you care too much about other people and don't do what you really want to do..

A Note

If i take your heart..
I promise i will cherish it..
If i take your heart..
I will heal all those all wounds..
If i take your heart..
it's my job to make it happy..
If i take your heart..
It's forever close to me..

Nola Dan Nonano

There's been so many times where I've needed you ,

No matter what the reason is you be there til the end.
Every time i need to talk or I'm sad and feeling blue,
you understand, your honest and you'll give your point of view.
You always put me first if i need you to be there,
I appreciate you doing this it shows how much you really care.
Your unconditional relationship showed me the person i am inside, and just to be myself is something i never have to hide.
If you ever need anything, anytime day or night
I promise i will be there to try and make it right.
Because i hope i can do for you all the things you've done for me,
I miss you..

I heart you dear..

I love you..

Thanks for always be my shoulder to lean on..

He Should Know

Broken Promise Ring

Before i met you i was always considered the strong one,the one who never get hurt...I could do anything and never fall..I felt like i was the one yang kuat...Tapi tu dulu before you've come along to my life..You've broken my heart lepas apa yang saya dah beri??You left me..and kamu juga yang dah shaken me from that really strong foundation that i had spent years constructing..I found out more about myself than i ever had before..I found that my foundation bukanlah sekuat mana yang disangka..I found that love isn't all it's cracked up to be and i also found this time mungkin i won't be able to get back up so quite easily..Ini semua sebab KAMU..It's YOU..You've ruined my life..tapi no matter what..Saya berterima kasih dengan ALLAH S.W.T sebab jumpakan saya dengan kamu..Bagi saya rasa apa tu kasih sayang,rasa dicintai dan dicintai,rasa dikhianati,rasa dipermainkan..Saya rasa so thankful sebab diberi peluang itu semua..Itu semua akan membuat kan saya lebih berhati hati dan matang dalam membuat keputusan di masa hadapan..Biarpun saya pedih,sakit tapi saya harus kuat..Sebab it's not only you yang saya ada..Saya still ada my parents, my family and friends yang always support and protect me from anything..

The life

Can i have the colourful life just like these balloons??

I wish i can...

My beautiful friend

You made me laugh when I cried so hard
You gave me bracelets to cover my scars
You held me close when I was so cold
You offered a comforting hand to hold

You picked me up whenever I fell
You showed me heaven when I was blinded by hell
You answered my calls in the darkened night
You gave me the reasons to hold on and fight

You rescued me when I was drowning in pain
You placed me back on the right path again
You loved me forever and stayed by my side
You entered my heart as an angel to guide

You may not be with me so much anymore
But I know you will leave open a beckoning door
I miss you so much but I'll fight till the end
I love you so much my Bestest friend

How a friendship is lost.

What happened to that smile
When I'd see you in the hall?
What happened to you being there
To always catch my fall?
When I'd say always and forever
You'd respond with "That is right"
What happened to that?
I want it back in my life
What happened to the hugs
That kept me from falling apart
You're no longer there
And it's tearing up my heart
Your pictures all around my room
The blanket on my bed
Tons of notes inside a box
Thoughts of you race through my head
You're presence always with me
Your voice rings through my ears
memories of you are shed
In the form of blood and tears
I wonder how you lose a friend
But deep inside I know
One is left there holding on
And the other one let's go

Jalan-jalan sakit kaki

 Thanks for the lovely day that three of us spent time together...
Do appreciate it..
Thanks for being the wonderful friends ever...

three of us..♥

syaza husna bt shamshul anuar

Syaza and nad

barang2 yg di shopping

JMN lah..while waiting for nad..

Nad..

makanan..

yummyy

Say Hello To Goodbye

Hey there stranger, how you bin'
Feels like i'm standing on the outside looking in
at the mess we left behind
And it's a long way to fall
I gave you everything I had
I gave it all
And then my heart was on the line

I can't hate you
any longer
I know i'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let it go.

Say hello to goodbye, cuse its gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And i'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cause, that was there and only then.

Say hello to goodbye
Say hello..

And this is how it has to be
Cause' its a deadly combination, you and me
You know its undeniable
Even though we tried it all
We brought the worst out in each other
I recall
We can't act it anymore

What doesn't kill you
It makes you stronger
And though i'm going to miss you
I'll forget it and let you go

Say hello to good-bye
Its gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And i'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cause, that was there and only then.

Say hello to goodbye
Say hello..

And even though the tears will dry
I can't completely disconnect
Couldn't make the compromise
Didn't have a safety net

Say hello to goodbye
heeey ya ya

Say hello, goodbye

Say hello to good-bye
Its gone forever
No more try, you and I
Not now, not ever
And i'll get by without you
I'm not going back again
I'm not going to lie to you
Cause, that was there and only then.

Say hello, to goodbye
Say hello, to goodbye
Say hello, hello
to goodbye.

Perfectly Unperfect

Ya ALLAH,

I feel so content..I am happy for all the imperfection i have and how i live such an imperfect life..

Not everything is right..Not everyone is okay...

I am not okay..But i am happy that way..I am grateful that ALLAH bless me with an open heart to allow the bitterness of the day..And i thankful to know that perfection does not exist..kann...Sebab tak semua orang dalam muka bumi ni sempurna...Therefore, i am proud that i'm normal..

Ya ALLAH, 

Kenapa harus kita bangun kalau kita harus tidur??

Kenapa kita perlu hidup kalau harus kita mati suatu hari nanti??

Kenapa kita perlu berjumpa kalau at the end kita hanya untuk say goodbye??

Sometimes i don't get it most of the time.. 

I don't like it ..But i know this teaches us something..

That time a constraint..That time is unavoidable..That time is unstoppable and that human will never everlasting  win...Bila kita faham itu semua kita akan realize yang nothing is more important than enjoying our days and make the people around us happy...

so when the time no longer exist people will remember us..and they will smile when do so..

Your sweet moonbeam

The smell of you in every single dream I dream

If I ever push you away, I didn't really mean to. When I told you I don't want to talk about it, I do, I am just looking for the right words. Give me some time, if I can tell you, I will. I am trying to be a struggling mix of real and perfect at the same time. At the moment, I am working on the ratio. When I get really quiet sometimes, its because I have too much to babble up, I have thought many things to tell you all at once, but yet I just don't know  how to start. Like yeah, I get really immaturely jealous of anyone who gets to see you on daily basis, and I know I couldn't. I miss you really easily but I also like if we can be apart, for a while and at the end, we are both okay. Space is good too. I love the way we both love the same things, and I love we love the entirely different things. I won't forget all those. As for now, my head is complicated with piles of thoughts, fears, tears, cravings, dreams, and these tangled up for the past, at the moment and somehow for the future. I am flawed, I am human and I am broken. And for some reason, I am trying. I wish and I am glad if we can still be friends after we both say goodbye, hand in hand. Things happened, we don't write the future, He does.

I just don't know where the heart is beating

Don't spit up, I have my own fairy, he has his own story. We must strong and carry on. Maybe it felt like the floor fell underneath us, and we've been running ever since. But we know we couldn't find our way back.  And if we love someone, set them free. Farewell

  

times will tell

This is about the one that I love. Today and always 

 ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOU

Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened

“Because at the end, mesti ada seorang yang akan sedih jugak nanti”

                                                                   -Thick

And F, I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they are right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. You have to believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. Baby, happy girls are the prettiest girl. You just have to believe that tomorrow is another day, and there are always miracles waiting for you. Be happy darling. Please smile again, will you?

And if you love someone, set them free

... just like I did

It’s okay to just sit in an empty house and cry because the wall holds in what you can’t. Just be strong okay? Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end

Oh Tuhan,

Kembalikan matahari saya yang hilang

Make a wish and place it in your heart

Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that it’s right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it. You just might get the thing you’re wishing for. The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it. With all your heart. And I wish for: Someone that's gonna keep their promises, listen to me babbling or enjoy a comfortable silence with, someone to call when I get scared, someone to laugh at my mistakes, and someone to grab me when I walk away. Is that too much to ask for? Hmph Well than please God, can you do this for me ? 

words they say too much

I love you means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even when you’re in a bad mood, or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with.I love you means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping you feel the same way for me. Find the one you can be you in front of & say absolutely anything. You can laugh, you can cry, you can hug, you can fight with him & then make up at the end of the night & he would still be crazy about you. 

You're always loved. You're just unware of it. Thanks for existing

My beautiful laugh

I hate this letter because it was written for you.

  Hi. I don’t know if you still read my craps, but if you do, this is just to say .. 

 I miss you. Mister, it’s been a while since we broke up. I miss you, still. 

 I miss your smile, your voice, your cute texts, your late night calls, and the old you. 

I miss your ability to put up with my endless crap. 

 And I miss the feeling of having butterflies in my stomach and my heart getting faster without any reasons. It’s been a while. Don’t you feel the same? I just don’t get it. I don’t get you at all. 

Some days you care so much. Some days you don’t at all. 

I think that if you never heard of me again, you’d be alright. That kills me.

 Not hearing from you for a week alone breaks my heart. I have been left waiting for too long. 

Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which one to do is the worst kind of suffering.  Mister, I am suffering.

 And now, it’s over. 

I don’t want things to be back like before anymore even though I have been missing those pretty moments very much. I want it to be like what has been decided since the beginning.

 I need to move on, because you already have. To be the one to be dumped is sucks but to be the one who dumps is sucker. I am sorry. It’s just not going to work. I am erasing you from the half of me. It’s kind of hard, but I know I can and I will. Like you said, time will heal. Thanks a lot. I don’t need you. I am no longerholding on, I am no longer waiting for nothing. Well, there is a scar. There is. And every scar tells a story. 

A story that says I will survive. Please make your way clear, and drive far away from me. 

Goodbye forever. My pretty heart needs time to find its pieces that you had broke.

Read my lips. The silent way people drift apart, the way the secret smiles fade. 
The fights end in crying with no one to hold me. The way my world seems to collapse, but I know this isn’t the way it’s supposed to be. And when I hang out, the way your eyes watch mine, the way you are looking at me, the way you are trying to say sorry and make all the pain go away.

And this is the time I’ll try not to care and don’t look away.

Being completely ignoring you.

And thinking that you don’t deserve me after all.

The complications. The tears. The heartsick.

Will go away.

People change, so does the heart.

You hurt mine, anyone else will hurt yours.

To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about it, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t about winning or losing. It’s not about pride, and it’s not about how you appear, and it’s not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss and it’s not about defeat. To let go is to cherish memories, to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind in confidence for the future. Letting go is learning, experiencing, and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It’s realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, to clear a path and let yourself free.

Mister, I am not giving up. I am growing up.

And I am going to smile again.

Sincerely, me

Somehow I just want to hug you tight and run. Run from the reality that it will be the last time I will hug you again. Farewell

A touch late

This might hurt you, and both of us

We used to be a good friend. I mean a very close person to me and my self. We used to hang out together, lunch and dinner together and some other things that best friends usually do. You phoned me sometimes and I text ed you to say hi and all. Anything that came out from your mouth will always made me laughed and cheered my day. It was fun to be together when we have someone that know us better and accept us for who we are, not what they expect us to be. 

You,

When I am with you, I am me, you know my craziness and stuffs. And you just don't care, that's cool. I can laugh out loud in public, yell and fart and go insane all the way with you. And now, there's no more you. Just because you and i got a new friend. We are in the same university girl,same class but now where are you ? I miss the old us..

I wish things will get back to normal like it used to be,

If you like me, tell me. I am not a mind reader, I don't speak guys

Never apologize for what you feel

People...
I won't say sorry whenever i feel sad or bad..
And i think it's fair enough that i can express it through my writing..
It's sadden me that some people try to condemn me for feeling what i feel..
Bukan aku minta pon...
I'm not happy all the time...
I'm just a normal girl and i go through the same stuff macam the other girls..
I'm just going through a rough time right now..and it takes me a lot of guts to express my sadness..
It's nice to be happy...and as much as i want to write..Only the good things in my life..
Itu hanya akan membuatkan aku aku jadi a fake person..or atau lebih teruk jadi more faker...
Wouldn't it...
So please people...spare me...You have your own life and so do i...

The New..

New life..new hopes..new expectations...
Hope sangat yang lepas ni tak benda yang worse terjadi dalam hidup aku...
It's enough...Dak penat try to fake a smile to others...
Now i want to start a new life...
Nak jadi manusia yang memberi senyuma yang ikhlas...
Memang kita every human humans make mistakes..but we learn from that..simple...it will make us be a better person....
Ni blog aku yang baru..yang dulu tu dah kena delete dengan org yang aku pernah sayang...
Tapi now dia dh jadi sebahagian dari hidup aku...